Luke records how Jesus had been teaching and healing a large crowd of five thousand men. As the day was drawing to a close, the Twelve approached him and said, “Dismiss the crowd so that they can go to the surrounding villages and farms and find lodging and provisions; for we are in a deserted place here” (Lk 9:12). The disciples appear to show concern for the many gathered. Yet the response of Jesus may reveal otherwise.
When Jesus tells them to, “Give them some food yourselves” (Lk 9:13), the disciples are stymied, for all that they had, five loaves and two fish, would barely be just enough to feed themselves. The disciples first sought to send the people away, then could see nothing but the limited resources they had, they saw lack.
What follows is the miracle of the multiplication of the loaves and the fish such that everyone present had enough to eat. “They all ate and were satisfied. And when the leftover fragments were picked up, they filled twelve wicker baskets” (Lk 9:17). This miraculous account is recorded in all four Gospels. Time and again, throughout the Gospel accounts, Jesus is able to provide a way where there appeared to be no way.
It is interesting as well that the word the disciples used, deserted, for we are in a deserted place, is erēmos in Greek. The immediate allusion is to the Hebrews who Moses had freed from Egypt. They too were in the deserted place, the wilderness. They also say their lack and constantly grumbled to Moses that they didn’t have enough and yet, God consistently provided for them bread from Heaven, the manna. Each day they did have enough to eat.
Erēmos can also be translated as lonely, a lonely place. One thing that is common among all of humanity is that we all experience loneliness. This is partly true because we separate ourselves from the deepest desire and hunger of our soul, our hunger to be loved by God. When we allow anyone or anything to be placed before our relationship with God, we will always experience a lack because only our relationship with God will truly satisfy us. Even the best of relationships, the best of things are finite, and will not last. In establishing and developing our relationship with God, all our other relationships and appetites can be properly ordered.
The next time, we feel like we can’t, we want to give up, we feel alone or are experiencing desolation, let us turn to our loving God and Father who will provide for our needs. He provides for us at every Mass the opportunity to experience his Son, the true miracle of bread and wine becoming the Body and Blood of Jesus the Christ. We can be nourished weekly, even daily, by the “source and summit of the whole Christine life” (Lumen Gentium) so that we can have the strength to persevere, that we can persevere, we know that we really and truly are never alone, and our desolation can be transformed into consolation by experiencing the love of the Holy Spirit.
Let us not buy into the lie of lack. Where his disciples saw lack, Jesus saw a way provided for by trusting in his Father and he multiplied the five loaves so the 5,000 all had their fill. We are finite human beings living in a finite world, yet we are not alone. Jesus, fully human and fully divine, continues to still be with us, present to us, just as he was with his disciples. As with them, when we trust in Jesus, all things are possible. When there appears to be no way, Jesus is the way. “When we give ourselves to Him, we receive a hundredfold in return. Yes, open wide the doors to Christ – and you will find true life” (Pope Benedict XVI in his inaugural homily, Sattler). Trust in Jesus today!
Photo: “Christ with the Host” by Paolo da San Leocadio
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