holy-hour

Come away and rest awhile with Jesus.

After hearing the accounts and success of the apostle’s missionary trip, Jesus invited them to step away from the crowds “to a deserted place [to] rest awhile” (Mk 6:31). Jesus is showing the apostles the importance of balance. There are times to work and serve as well as times to recharge, to reconnect, spend some quiet and reflective time with him. Jesus is our model, our guide and teacher, but he is at the same time more than that. Jesus is the source and sustenance of who we are as a living craving, hunger, and desire to be one with God and each another. As the deer longs to refresh itself from the waters of a running stream, we long to be nourished by the living water, Jesus, and this is true for the atheist as well as the mystic alike. This is true for each and every one of us, whether we are aware of this reality or not.

Our thirst for communion can be stifled because it is so easy to be caught up in our day to day schedule, life’s demands, and operating from survival mode. Even when all is good and we are serving well, as we see with the apostles return, there is a need for rest.  There is so much that needs to be done, and at the same time, there are so many distractions and diversions that vie for our energy and attention.

In today’s Gospel, the intent of Jesus is to escape with his apostles for some rest and renewal, to decompress with them, and hear about their experiences of ministry. They get in a boat to do just that, yet the crowd that they thought they had left behind arrived on the other side before they did! This is a sign that the preaching, exorcisms, and healing work the apostles participated in was already bearing fruit. Just as people were flocking to Jesus, so word was getting out about his disciples! “When Jesus disembarked and saw the vast crowd, his heart was moved with pity for them, for they were like sheep without a shepherd; and he began to teach them many things” (Mk 6:34).

So much for being able to “rest away for awhile”! Or maybe the boat ride across was that moment of rest. The moment to take a breath and reconnect with Jesus. As Jesus and the apostles were coming closer to shore, they could have diverted their course to avoid them. Instead, Jesus, was moved with pity or compassion and taught them. A key for a more balanced life is to spend time daily with Jesus to know his will and follow his lead.

This is an important discipline and practice that we all need to attend to. As St. Francis de Sales taught: “Every one of us needs half an hour of prayer a day, except when we are busy — then we need an hour.” When I first began as a priest here at Holy Cross, I was having trouble fitting in my daily holy hour before the blessed sacrament. The light bulb went on when my spiritual director said to me, “You know what you are doing?”

I asked, “What?”

He said, “You are negotiating with a non-negotiable.”

He then said maybe you can do a half hour a day. Before he even finished the thought, I felt Jesus tell me that I needed to be faithful to that time alone with him each day. Without his grace and guidance and renewing in him, I would not be able to do what he requires me to do as his priest. I have been blessed by making time each evening to go away to the church and rest awhile with him.

When we intentionally put God first and make the time each day to spend with him, often there is a serendipitous alignment that we experience in our day, that we did not think possible at the outset. This often happens when we consciously make time for stillness, for meditation and prayer, even and especially, during the moment when we may feel we just don’t have the time.

As you ease into Saturday, my invitation is to give yourself a fifteen minute retreat. Read these words from Jesus slowly and reflectively: “Come away by yourselves to a deserted place and rest awhile” (Mark 6:31). Find a quiet place where you feel comfortable, take a few deep, slow breaths, close your eyes, then step into and sit in the boat with Jesus and his disciples.

Breathe some more, feel the breeze of the Sea of Galilee, feel the warmth of the sun on your face, and experience the rhythm of the boat on the water. Does Jesus remain silent and rest with you? Does he begin to teach, and if so, what does he share? Do any questions arise and if so what do you ask, and what is his answer? Allow yourself to be still, just you and Jesus for the time you have set aside. When the boat comes to shore, go forth into the day renewed and blessed by Jesus with a heart and mind able to be moved with compassion to follow God’s will in how best to serve him through those he brings you today and into the coming week.

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Photo: Heading in to spend some quiet time away with Jesus.

Link for the Mass readings for Saturday, February 7, 2025

Holy Week invitation, unplug for a bit and be still with God.

In yesterday’s reading, Caiaphas and the Sanhedrin plot to bring about the death of Jesus. The results of their planning will be on full display today in the Gospel account of Mark. Though long, these verses are well worth the time and effort to read (cf. Mark 11:1-10, 14:1-15:47).

The scene from the Passion account that I would like to reflect upon is Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane (Mk 14:32-42). Jesus invited Peter, James, and John, the same three apostles that witnessed the raising of Jairus’ daughter and the Transfiguration of Jesus on Mt. Tabor to be with him again, this time in his hour of dire need. As Jesus entered the garden, he expressed to them that he felt “sorrowful even unto death”, reflecting the full weight of what was about to take place. Jesus asked the closest of his inner circle to watch and pray while he went off at a distance. Through Mark’s account we are given a glimpse of Jesus’ humanity and divinity.

The most primal of our human instincts is the preservation of our life. Jesus, faced with his imminent death, acknowledged this primal urge by requesting, “Abba, Father, all things are possible to you. Take this cup away from me”. The agony is palpable. Jesus has done all that the Father has asked of him, he has preached, taught, healed, exorcised demons, followed his Father’s will, and now finds himself on death’s door. He can probably sense Judas and the Temple guards drawing close. He will be turned over to those who have turned their back on his Father. All appeared to be hopeless.

Yet, Jesus was not done, he continued, “but not what I will but what you will.” These are not words of despair. In Jesus’ surrender of his human will to the Father, he surrenders in hope. The same hope that we see in Psalms 42 and 43: “Hope in God, I will praise him still, my savior and my God.” Even faced with his imminent and brutal death, Jesus accepted the will of his Father, his Abba. He trusted that there would be a greater good to transpire through his death, through the giving of his life.

With those words, Jesus surrendered his human will to that of his divine will. With each and every yes to his Father’s will through his life, his human nature was more and more conformed to his divine nature. In this account, we see that Jesus is one divine person, the Son of God, while at the same time having two natures and two wills, the human and divine.

As Jesus arose, he came to Peter, James, and John and found them asleep. He said to Peter, “Simon, are you asleep? Could you not keep watch for one hour? Watch and pray that you may not undergo the test. The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.” Jesus returned to prayer and returned two more times to find his three closest disciples asleep each time. Jesus was ready to face the cross even if they were not. As with the apostles, Jesus commands us to watch and pray this Holy Week. How will we do?

Often, this Lent we may have felt the desire to pray, but the business of life has worn us down – “the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.” In the evenings, we just want to be numb and zone out. Sometimes this is necessary to recharge. What we choose to do during our winding down time though may not be renewing or restful, but even more draining. Scrolling through social media, surfing through TV channels can lead to 20 – 30 minutes to a couple of hours. Passive activities like these can also affect our attentiveness and bleed into the decisions we make each day and can create a rhythm and pattern of tiredness and fatigue that continues and is perpetuated. We may find ourselves creating a cycle that we have less energy to exercise, to pray, and to take care of our basic needs.

We are invited this next week to follow Jesus. He who certainly did not want to die, was willing to let go of his life to follow his Father’s will. He also did so for each of us. May we be willing to take the same approach. With each choice we make this Holy Week, may we take a moment to breathe and say, “Not my will but yours, Father.” And then wait a moment for a response. Maybe we can fast a little more this Holy Week, from food and diversions that we know are not healthy. When we feel the pangs of hunger and diversions calling and tempting, let us pray for someone we know is in need. Instead of an automatic reaching for the remote or the phone, find a quiet spot and be still, breathe, and review the day in quiet and call to mind what and who we are grateful for. Read a few verses from one of the gospels and see what God might be saying to us. Then ask Jesus how best you might spend the rest of your evening.

Sometimes, just taking five minutes to unplug, stop, breathe and be sit still or to go for a quiet walk with Jesus can be renewing and life changing. We can feel better about ourselves, closer to God, and better able to be present for others.

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Photo: Some quiet time during our 40 Hours of Devotion to the Most Blessed Sacrament last week, SVDP chapel, SVDP Regional Seminary, Boynton Beach, FL.

Link for the Mass reading for Sunday, March 24, 2024