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Resist justifying or denying and instead confess our sins and we will experience God’s forgiveness, heal, and grow in his love.

It is much easier to find fault in others, and in some cases, the act of doing so has become entertainment in the private as well as the public sector. Gossip has a seductive allure and can be consuming. Judging others is also a way to justify and or project our own inappropriate behavior onto others. We may even place ourselves in a false sense of exalted pride. Have we ever, not just stated, but, thought or prayed something along the same lines as the Pharisee in today’s Gospel? “O God, I thank you that I am not like the rest of humanity — greedy, dishonest, adulterous — or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week, and I pay tithes on my whole income…” (Lk 18:11-12).

To pray any part of this prayer stunts the growth in our spiritual life because we are focused on ourselves instead of emptying ourselves before God. A hyper sense of self reliance leads us away from the truth they we are dependent on God our Father for anything and everything and apart from him we can do nothing. Anytime we rationalize, cover over, deny, or completely ignore our sinful behavior we create and support habits of selfishness and feed our selfishness. Left unchecked, we can become enslaved to them. Lent is a time to pause and ponder, to be grateful for God’s love and his care, and also to give ourselves time to be aware of where we fall short of the glory of God. When we are willing to identify and confess our sins, we are forgiven and can begin to heal from sinful attitudes and actions that have become habitual vices.

In reading more lives of the saints, I have come to understand that their recognition and their confession of their sinfulness was not just pious platitudes, but true presentations that they were growing closer in their relationship with Jesus. The closer we grow in our relationship with Jesus the more we experience his light and love, which unveils more of our sins.

When we drive our car while it is dark we don’t give much thought to the cleanliness of our windshield because we can see fine. Yet as the headlights from an oncoming car illuminate our windshield we can see how dirty in actuality it is. This can be evident in our spiritual life as well. The more we remain in our own darkness of denial, self righteousness, resist slowing down to examine our conscience, we feel we are fine, all is right with the world. If we experience any problems, it is because of something or someone else, never us. The closer we grow in our relationship with Jesus though, the more his light shines in our darkness, and reveals to us our sin.

Jesus invites us to resist the prayer of the Pharisee who prays comparing himself to someone else, who refuses to acknowledge his own sinful actions and instead emphasizes that we are to follow the honest humility of the tax collector, who did “not even raise his eyes to heaven but beat his breast and prayed, ‘O God, be merciful to me a sinner’” (Lk 18:13). Now, Jesus is not saying this is the only way we pray. We have the opportunity to worship and praise the Lord joyfully, we can seek his help in praying for others through intercessory prayer or for ourselves in petitionary prayer, we can also sit in quiet meditation during adoration or out among God’s wonder of creation and experience deep consolation.

Each prayer has its time and place and each type of experience of prayer helps us to grow and deepen our relationship with Jesus and each other. The key to each of our prayers is our willingness to be the humble children we are and lift up of our hearts and minds to God who is always inviting us to spend time with him.

True humility happens when we are willing to see who we are from God’s loving gaze. If we are to set a standard to live up to and if we are to compare ourselves to anyone, let it be Jesus. A daily examination of conscience of allowing ourselves to rest in our Father’s loving gaze is a healthy practice and discipline. When we invite Jesus to shine his light of love into the darkness of our fear and anxiety, our loneliness and idols, we will see our sins. Jesus does not do so to shame and condemn us, but so that we can experience our sorrow and separation from God that sin causes.

As we experience our loneliness, pain, and wounds, and resist putting anyone or anything else before God to compensate for what we are feeling, we can feel his love and begin to realize that we are not alone, that we never have been alone. And that the only one who can fill our deepest longings is God. With this attitude, temptations and sins became opportunities for God’s grace, because we can now see clearer our life without Jesus and our life with him. Each time we choose Jesus over our temptations, we will experience him more, know him better, grow in our relationship with his Father, and experience the love shared between them, the Holy Spirit.

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Photo: Spending time with Jesus, helps us to slow down, then we can follow him as he leads us from the darkness our sins so that we may experience the light of his love.

Link for the Mass readings for Saturday, March 14, 2026

Trusting in and reflecting the light of Jesus, we will grow even in the darkness.

The king was deeply distressed, but because of his oaths and the guests he did not wish to break his word to her (Mk 6:26).

The king referenced in today’s Gospel is the tetrarch, Herod Antipas, one of the sons of Herod the Great. He reveals the weakness of his character when he calls for the beheading of John the Baptist, much as a foreshadowing of Pilate before the crowd asking for Jesus’ death. Both condemned innocent men to die and they knew it, hesitated in fulfilling the deed, but followed through anyway. They each decided to take John and Jesus’ lives. Herod chose to protect his foolish oath to Salome, instead of standing up and defending the dignity of the life of John the Baptist. Pilate caved into the pressure of the crowds who claimed he was no spokesman for Caesar. In both cases, innocent men were brutally murdered without any regard for their lives.

For the first part of his gospel, Mark has shown the opposite. He has shown what true leadership in the person and actions of Jesus who instead of disregarding and degrading human beings empowered them through his teaching. A better way of wholeness and union with the God and with each other is presented by his words and his actions. Jesus freed the possessed, healed those who had been on the outside bound by illness and/or sin. Instead of the weak will and cowardice of Herodias, we recently saw the strength of purpose and courage of the woman with the hemorrhage.

While Mark provides us with this interlude and flashback of the death of John the Baptist, the apostles are on the march proclaiming the gospel, healing, and exorcising demons in Jesus’ name. They are putting into practice what they had learned. They are allowing their hearts and minds to be changed by the Word of God. Herod did not allow the same seeds of God’s word to find any root in his heart. Instead of listening to the words of John, repenting from his sin, and allowing himself to be transformed, he chose his own passions over the truth, imprisoned John and then chose his moment of execution. There was a moment of hesitation, before that fateful decision. That pause could have grown to inspiration, but instead withered and died under the heat of his ego.

Unlike Herod, Jesus showed the moral courage to stand up for and empower those who were considered other, lesser, unclean, possessed, and social outcasts. Jesus, like John, showed courage by speaking the truth that God gave him to reveal. John was willing to lose his head as God’s spokesman and preparing the way for his Son, Jesus was willing to be crucified. John cleared the way for Jesus and Jesus walked the way that led to the cross, died, and conquered death. He did so, so that each one of us might have life, and have it to the full.

We have a choice to make each day and each moment. We can choose to refuse the gift of Jesus’ life given and follow the enemy or receive the gift of Jesus’ life and follow Jesus. Herod and Pilate made their choices and the woman with the hemorrhage and the apostles made theirs. May we choose to follow Jesus and allow his words to find rich soil, that we may allow our hearts and mind to be transformed. In choosing Jesus and allowing his light to shine, our vices whither and die, while our virtues will be nourished and grow.

Photo: We choose with each thought, word, and action whether to curve in upon ourselves, into the darkness, or open our hearts and minds to Jesus and reflect his light.

Link for the Mass readings for Friday, February 6, 2025

Let us repent, rise from the darkness and walk into the light of Jesus.

“The people who sit in darkness have see a great light” (Matthew 4:16).

Matthew is quoting the prophet Isaiah and the darkness he is referring to was the fall of Zebulun and Naphtali, the first two of the ten tribes of Israel that were conquered by the Assyrians in around 722 BC. The other eight tribes of Israel would also fall. The two tribes of Judah remained for a time, but then in 587 BC, Jerusalem, the capital city, along with the Temple, were also destroyed. The last two of the original twelve tribes of Israel were also conquered. The promise of an everlasting kingdom from David’s line appeared to be lost.

Not so. A great light would come, the Messiah, one greater than Moses would be sent by God to unite again the twelve tribes of Israel. The Kingdom of David would be re-established, this time – forever. A glimmer of hope arose in 538 BC when Cyrus the Great conquered Babylon and freed Judah and sent them back to rebuild Jerusalem and the Temple. Cyrus was a liberator, but not the promised Messiah.

What Matthew did not share in this part of his Gospel was the next promise that Isaiah made: “For a child is born to us, a son is given to us; upon his shoulder dominion rests. They name him Wonder-Counselor, God-Hero, Father-Forever, Prince of Peace” (Isaiah 9:5).

As Christians we believe this child promised to become the Prince of Peace, is Jesus the Christ, the Son of the living God. In the gospel today, Matthew records the beginning of his public ministry which began with the arrest of John the Baptist. Jesus has come from the northern region, Galilee to be baptized by John. Now with his arrest, the political climate in Jerusalem seems a bit too hot. Jesus “withdrew to Galilee… in the region of Zebulun and Naphtali” (Mt. 4:12-15).

Wait a minute – Zebulun and Naphtali? Yep. Jesus is going back to the beginning where the fall of the ten tribes of Israel first began. Makes sense since he came to restore and re-establish and re-unify the twelve tribes of Israel. He did not only come to restore but to establish the new Israel. That is what we see in the next verses in which Jesus calls Simon, Andrew, James and John, the first of the, wait for it – twelve apostles.

Just as the twelve tribes of Israel began with the twelve sons of Jacob/Israel, the new Jerusalem will begin with the twelve apostles. By our baptism, we are heirs and members of the new Israel, the Body of Christ. Yet, we don’t have to look far to see the seeds of disunity and division still festers like a plague. Just as David unified the twelve tribes, for them only to be divided after one generation, we too suffer division and polarization in our nation, church, families, and friends.

Paul experience this in one the church’s he founded in Corinth. In our second reading, he appeals to them: “I urge you, brothers and sisters, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that all of you agree in what you say, and that there be no divisions among you, but that you be united in the same mind and in the same purpose” (I Corinthians 1:10). We are to be united in the love of Christ. Jesus is the light that shines in our darkness of division.

We can easily fall into despair with the disunity and polarization, we can feel like people sitting in darkness and overshadowed by death on every side. Yet, we are not overcome. Jesus is the fulfillment of Isaiah’s prophecy. And his antidote to the darkness? “Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand” (Mt 4:17).

Jesus’ message is as simple as it is clear. Jesus is the kingdom of heaven that is at hand and he is continuing to establish the new Israel that will be fulfilled in the heavenly kingdom. He is present among us revealing with his gentle light another way, one of harmony and peace. When we allow ourselves to breathe, receive, rest, and abide in the love of Jesus, when we become less so Jesus can become more, we experience his love, consolation, and joy. If we are not, there may be something we need to repent from, reject, something to heal from, and/or something to let go of.

The light of Jesus will guide us through our darkness and when we follow, will lead to our healing, forgiveness, and freedom. We can retreat further into the shadows and feed anxiety, doubt, or fear. We can also choose to repent, leave the darkness, and come into the light. Each thought, word, and action contributes to fostering the present darkness or to the light that will overcome it. Hopefully, with each choice, we trust more in Jesus.

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Photo: When we are willing to see, Jesus shines in our darkness.

Link for the Mass readings for Sunday, January 25, 2026

 

Will we choose to remain in the darkness or follow Jesus into the light?

“He brought in the head on a platter and gave it to the girl. The girl in turn gave it to her mother” (Mark 6:28).

The momentum that led to the death of John the Baptist could have slow and the direction could have taken a different course. It did not even slow but only escalated. Once Herod Antipas offered to the girl “even half of his kingdom”, she went in haste to her mother. Without hesitation her mother asked for John the Baptist. There was a slight hesitation on Herod’s part when he received the request, but no one spoke about the atrocity or horror of this request. Herod, as would Pontius Pilate, gave in to the pressure of not saving a life, for even there no one spoke out against what was coming, but in taking the life of an innocent man, which the executioner executed efficiently.

John’s crime, what he was arrested for, was calling Herod and Herodias to repent, to turn away from the sin of adultery they were committing and to turn back to God. John sought to help this couple to see that their actions not only were leading to their own demise, but that they were leading many of their subjects with them. Each person chose to play their part in John’s death, they chose their own ego-drama over and above the principal actor before them playing out God’s theo-drama.

This horrific account, if it was not bad enough on its own, was a foreshadowing of another – John’s cousin. Jesus would also be tried, condemned, and crucified for choosing to speak God’s word of repentance, to invite others within ear shot to turn away from that which was keeping them from God. Many were not only closed to the idea of repentance, they not only ignored his message, but also called out for his death, “Crucify him” (Mark 15:13)!

John and Jesus were faithful to hearing and following the will of God. They exhibited true courage in their willingness to give their lives, and because they have done so, they have opened up for us the path to eternal life. Where do we find ourselves in the account of the beheading of John the Baptist and the crucifixion of Jesus? Are we on the side of the indifferent that will watch them die without a word, are we on the side of rejecting the light of God and choosing the darkness of our own sin? If our conscience is pricked, do we resist following the temptation of the Holy Spirit and listen to the lies of the enemy and follow him instead?

Is there another option than those witnessed in the Gospel accounts? Yes, those of Mary and the Apostles. They, despite the cultural, political, familial, internal, and even religious pressures of the time, chose to trust in Jesus and follow him, even when they didn’t understand. This is revealed powerfully when Jesus asked the Apostles at the end of the Bread of Life discourse, “Do you also want to leave?” Simon Peter answered him, “Master, to whom shall we go? You have the words of everlasting life” (John 6:67-68).

With each thought, word, and decision we make, we need to take the time to pause and discern what voices we are listening to. If they don’t align with the will of God, we need to follow the lead of John and Jesus and renounce them. Otherwise, we can get caught up in a momentum of thoughts that can lead to actions that can lead to some dark places we don’t want to go. The Holy Spirit can help us to change course, even when we have walked away… If we are willing to stop, take a breath, and listen. It is never too late to repent. It is never too late to turn away from sin, return to God, and get back on the path that leads to eternal life.

Photo: There is much distraction, diversion, and temptation that the enemy will place in our way. If we remain in and follow the light of Jesus he will “rescue our feet from the snare” (cf. Psalm 25:15).

Link for the Mass readings for Friday, August 29, 2025