“At the sight of the crowds, his heart was moved with pity for them because they were troubled and abandoned, like sheep without a shepherd” (Mt 9:36).
There is much that pulls at us for our time and attention. Jesus witnessed the anxieties, struggles, pain, and feelings of being lost regarding those in his midst. Are we so different today? Jesus knows the Father, he knows the joy and fulfillment of what being in a full relationship with him entails. Jesus saw then and sees in us now how lost we can become. How easily distracted and diverted we are. He knows how many things we put before our relationship with God thinking that we will be satisfied, but time and again we are left empty. Jesus remains close even in these experiences and in our sorrow, disappointment and loneliness, Jesus is not distant and aloof, he “is moved with pity.”
Jesus’ heart goes out to us, he yearns to be one with us and share his love. In that very act of love, he risks. He loves us so much, that he is willing to let us choose ourselves, others, or a myriad of other pursuits over him. Jesus invites us to the joyful experience of developing a relationship with him so we can come to know his Father, and experience the love of the Holy Spirit while at the same time he does not impose himself on us. We are given the whole world to choose from or we can choose him. Who do we put first? Is God a priority in our life? If we find that God is at best an after-thought, or at worst a no thought, instead of getting to know God better, what is it that we are choosing over him?
Jesus invites us, but too often we miss, ignore, or do not follow through on his invitation. Too often we choose other pleasures, distractions, diversions, temptations, and/or apparent goods. With time and experience, we may come to see the emptiness of the lure of these worldly promises, as well as begin to recognize that our attachments and disordered affections often lead to many of our troubles, trials, stresses, and anxieties. We are often led astray because we are seeking to address our underlying experiences of unfulfillment, abandonment, fear of missing out, and/or loneliness. There is only one source, one person, that will ultimately fulfill our innermost longing; God our Father.
I am not advocating for a rejection of the material world. All that God has created is good. We are human beings and a part of God’s glorious creation. Nor do I believe that we are souls trapped in this body waiting to be released upon our death. As human beings, we are a unique unity of body and soul. The key to our fulfillment, finding meaning and belonging is choosing to put God first. In establishing a firmer relationship with God, we can better discern that which we need to let go of, and/or how to reorder that which God wants to remain. Once we begin to experience the fulfillment of his love and establish God as our firm foundation, even the challenges and trials that arise with not disturb our peace.
This might be the moment to be still and evaluate where we are in our lives and to ponder who we belong to. Jesus offers to lead us, just as he has led his disciples through the ages. Those of every age have experienced trials and tribulations and found the promises of this world fleeting. What made the difference for the saints was that they said yes to the call of the Shepherd and then followed him and experienced his peace and rest. Are we willing to slow down, to breathe, and listen to the Shepherd’s invitation today? Are we willing to follow his lead and experience his love?
Photo: A quiet afternoon walk Grand Coteau Retreats, Grand Coteau, LA.